We are ticking on along nicely at the moment.
Husband and I had a conversation the other day about how cancer really has put us on a different path.
In terms of work, he was looking for opportunities away from where we live now. This could have resulted in a move. I was on the path to a job with much greater responsibility and pay. Thanks to Money Saving Expert (which I can't recommend highly enough for people struggling with money/debt) we were on track to sorting our finances. We were giving serious thought to having a third child.
Now, money is chaotic. I'll be honest, I struggle to get a grip with it and can be very over generous with the kids and family. I am trying to reign this in as I need to save for holiday next year. I am trying desperately to keep the job I have, let alone get a promotion. That won't happen whilst we are still on treatment, and not for a while afterwards. Husband feels unable to apply for jobs further away in these uncertain times. I don't think baby 3 will ever happen now. I am tired to my bones. This makes me feel so incredibly sad.
It feels like we have had so much taken from us.
Of course, I am grateful we have a house, and an income. And most of all, I am grateful that I have two children here with me. We can hope for good health in the future.
I would still rather it had never happened though.