Tuesday, 8 January 2013

Influenza B

We have a diagnosis then.

It's amazing - as soon as they said flu, it all fit into place.  We just didn't look for it as she'd had the flu jab.  She's through the worst now, but she's still in hospital for another day so they can make absolutely sure that her temperature stays constant.  Then she will go with her dad.  She's so weak, and I think it will be some time before she's more normal.  This will not be helped by the IV chemo that she is due to have next Thursday.

I am feeling so fed up for her, and for us as a family.

I am wishing with all my might for a windfall so that I could take some time away from work and care for her, rather then shipping her off to her dad's because I've missed too much time and I can't afford to take more.

I am feeling run down, tired to my bones and like a dreadful excuse for a parent and employee today.  Once again, I can do no right.



  1. I just stumbled on your blog while searching for other parents blogging about their child's cancer. I just want to say THANK YOU for those last two paragraphs. I am feeling terrible lately and just so damned tired. We're a year and a half into this and it feels never ending. I don't know how to cope anymore - money is tight now, I'm too unfocused at work, our house is a mess, and I have so little patience with my son. This process feels endless. And yet I don't see other cancer parents talking about it, so it feels like I'm handling it worse than others might be. It was nice to see your blog and see that it's not just me.

  2. Thank you for this. I've only just seen it as my notifications must have failed! I hope things are getting better for all of you x